Thoughts

Oh how life can change in a matter of seconds. I was certain that 2015 was going to be the year of our family... meaning that our family was finally going to be ALL together, but with the sudden death of my grandmother Its so hard to get together when the most important piece of the puzzle is missing. Each day that passes seems harder to believe she is gone... they say that time heals everything, but right now it just doesn't seem true. My feelings are so conflicted I understand that God's timing is perfect and everything he does it with a purpose for the good of all, but I still can't accept. I ask God to fill my heart with understanding, comfort, and peace. It's amazing how all the memories I have with her pour in like an avalanche. All day I spend remembering the good times with her, the warmth of her smile, the touch of her hands, her SMELL! I can smell her I can feel her and I can hear her..and it breaks my heart to know that its just memories. Don't get me wrong I am thankful for them, thankful they are great ones thankful they are mine and nothing can remove them from me. This post might not make any since, but in the future when my son, or any family read this they know how important she was to us all.